So it looks like the house here in San Antonio is going to sell. We’re back on track for a Feb 24th departure to make the trek to Salem, OR. I’ve put in my two weeks notice and Randy and I are packing the house up at a good pace.
My superpower? I’m glad you asked. My superpower is being a total human doormat. Apparently I’m incapable of saying “NO” and meaning it. I might say no, but I rarely have the ability to follow through with it.
Person: I need you to do (insert imposition here) for me.
Me: I can’t right now.
Person: Come on, just this once (this is actually the 30th or 40th time I’ve done this for this person)?
Me: Ok…I guess if I rearrange my (insert life, finances, time, procedures) I could.
That’s my curse, I’m competent and reliable…and a pushover. Family, friends, and coworkers all know they can abuse my good nature and I’m not going to say a thing.
Standing up for myself has never been an easy thing for me to do. At 44 years old I’m realizing that I need to be more willing to say no and actually stick to it. It’s really true that nice guys finish last…because we’re always doing our work and everyone else’s too.
From now on, NO isn’t a word that means maybe in my vocabulary. It means that after careful consideration, I feel that the cost/benefit ratio of the proposal is too far in the cost column on my ledger and I will require a more balanced proposal before I agree.
Winston Churchill said, “If you’re going through hell, keep going.”. What if that place is worse?
Every time I think the worst is behind me, another larger obstacle seems to crop up and impede my path. I constantly feel like a man stuck in the desert chasing mirages.
Let me start by saying that I love strong female heroes. Laura Croft, Jean Gray, Rogue, Storm, Wonder Woman, Supergirl, Batwoman, Doctor Aki Ross (Final Fantasy: The Spirits Within), the 2016 Ghostbusters. These are just a few of the strong female characters I’ve grown up with and love, but the hero that started it all for me was Princess Leia played by the indomitable Carrie Fisher.
Princess Leia was the first strong female hero I saw on the big screen. She was no nonsense, take charge, funny, smart, tough as nails, and drop dead beautiful. She taught me that princesses weren’t helpless twits who needed some big strong knight to save their honor or their life. Princess Leia was a bad ass.
Carrie Fisher wasn’t just an actress to so many of us who grew up watching her and dreaming about adventures in a galaxy far, far away…she was our Princess.
Though Carrie had some tough times throughout her life, and struggled with addiction and mental health issues, she loved her fans and we loved her.
Via-Towleroad News by Andy Towle
Please watch: Matt Baume lays out the Republican plan for repealing marriage equality. Texas looks to be ready to completely ignore marriage equality. This is one of the main reasons that my husband and I are leaving TX and moving to a blue state. Hopefully we can ride out the Trump regime and stay married.
So it’s been a couple days that I haven’t posted anything. My husband and I have been busy with buying a house in OR so we can get the hell out of TX. As of Sunday afternoon we’ve got a verbal acceptance of our offer for what we hope will be our new home in OR. It’s scary picking up and moving 1700 miles, but also very exciting.
We’re heading to Portland for the Christmas break and I may not get many opportunities to post so check my twitter feed for the next week or so!
Happy Holidays to you all!
Today has been an extremely stressful day for me. I had an interview yesterday that I think went well, but I’m not sure. Yesterday I also, found out that the owner of the house that we put an offer in on has decided to delay their decision until Saturday now (they were supposed to decide tomorrow…and we are the only offer at this point).
All this anxiety hit me hard today and I’m had a couple really nasty panic attacks.
I could sure use some good news right about now.